***What's within***
In the depths of my solitude I lay,
Watching, waiting, hoping,
For a stranger to this world I am
And in shadows forever I will stay.
A wandering soul that doesn't belong,
A sad reflection of what a man should be,
A dark feeling keeps growing strong,
And I tremble in fear when I see that it's me.
For a change to God I pray,
But a cry silenced by shame
Shall never be listened to,
And in fear I see that to myself, I will always be a prey.
My worst enemy inside me breathes,
Killing myself I call a sin,
For the one that hates me the most,
A moment of peace for me never leaves.
Harsh these words seem to be,
But
*** SONG 2 ***
Sometimes everything looks so gray
Sometimes all I see makes me feel sorrow
Sometimes these feelings scream inside of me
And my heart cries in silent words of so_called hope
I think someday everything will be all right
I hope, someway, somehow
Something tells me its up to me to see the light
But I keep pushing myself down
Now and then sadness comes my way
Now and then the path I've chosen looks so wrong
Now and then I see the moon smiling at me
And for a moment my heart is filled with this so-called hope
I think someday everything will be all right
I hope, somehow, someway
Something tells me its up to me to see t
***What lurks inside***
My mind dreams of beautiful and forbidden pleasures
A feeling crawling in my body, numbing my brain.
I tremble with every beat, in fear of what I might be
Darkness engulf me
Primitive
My heart beats faster,
My lungs filled with the intoxicating aroma of the unthinkable,
Me eyes seek for the perfect prey,
My ears fall seduced by the sweet sound of pleasure,
My mouth hungers for flesh,
My hands want to feel, to hold
Sin
Not holding back
Gotta let these feelings out
Oh!…the sweetness, the pain and things that should not be.
I don't care…should have never cared…
Release
The feeling fades
I can't feel my
Current Residence: Guadalajara, Jalisco, México Favourite genre of music: Metal Favourite style of art: Photography, indy art, Photomanip Operating System: Vista Home Premium MP3 player of choice: iTunes Favourite cartoon character: ARC Troopers,spidey, The Batman
Its been two years since i submitted anything. Mainly because My devs were taken down...
I'm willing to give it a shot again.
Also, now i have 4 kids. Sofia Edlyn is aour new baby girl. WELCOME!!! And please try not to keep me awake at night ;)
Oh, and death magnetic is out and Metallica RULES!! also, i have tickets for the Motley Crue conert here in Guadalajara.
Looks like things are better right now according to what i see on my previous journal entries.
DA took down all my star wars related stuff cause of policy violation. They even took down one of my family dresses as star wars characters...what the fuck????
So, i took a trip down the movies galleries and i see thousand of deviations that, if policy were to be equialy aplied, would be taken down.
I just think that if i get a slap pn the wrist for violating a policy, everyone should get one too if there is something called justice.
Go on and take down all the fucking britney spears wallpapers cause i bet you none of those pictures where taken by the people who submited the wallpapers, or the doors, or the fucking beattles.
And if i shou
Its so interesting how things seem to agitate and look out of control when impending change looms upon us
Im waiting for a new job offer and thats very positive, but someone i love thinks im some kind of monster...wich is not what i intended.
I need to change some stuff, i dont mean to hurt people around me, but if im not happy and i dont get along with myself, how am i suppose to interact with other people?